Little Things

In December of 2010 I lost everything. I had no job, no car, no friends, no real family, nobody I loved or felt loved by, no home, or anything else for that matter. It was then what I realized what a horrible person I had been, how self-centered and annoying I had been. I learned then what really mattered and who really was my friends.

I had lost my only true friends because of my selfish-ness and when it came down to it my other friends really didn't give a crap about me, they had been using me for friend benefits (rides and food and such). I realized I could never get my real friends back until I made some changes about myself, not to change who I was but to change glitches about my personality. I couldn't take a joke, I was short tempered, self absorbed, and obsessive. Not anything that defined me, but just made me annoying. After I changed that part about me, I had to humble myself and admit I had been wrong and that they were the only good things that were in my life. THANK GOD they forgave me, because true friends will always be there for you.

I decided after I fixed the friend thing the only thing that would fix everything else (materialistic) would be for me just to get a job. Honestly this was the hardest part because the economy sucks way bad.... Took me 8 months for find another job... and the wait was worth it because I now have the best job EVER. It's so fun and I never knew working could be so exciting.

The last part about my family I know I can never fix, because honestly if they haven't changed by now to be good family members they never are going to be. They are all short-tempered, self-centered, hypocrites who couldn't give a crap about me being part of their family. I've decided the main reason for their dislike towards me is because I'm not a "perfect mormon child" like they supposedly are. Yeah I may not go to church every week... but do they know why? NO, because they don't give a crap my reasons they just want an excuse like every-other-mormon around here, to judge me. I decided that's ok though, you don't choose your family, but you do choose your friends. So your friends can be your family and later if you get married your spouse and your friends can be your family, you don't actually need blood relatives to be there for you, when you can have something so much more.