My "FriEnds"

Do you ever feel like your being ignored or that your existence apparently doesn't matter? Well I have... and I finally realized that I will never be noticed by or accepted by my "friends". No, this is not me whining about how much my life sucks or anything, I have proof that my existence apparently doesn't matter to my supposed friends.
All of my "friends" hang out every Friday night and have been for 7 months now... I found out this month.
All of my "friends" are in the same club as me... and because of work I claim that I can only stay for an hour, in actuality I could stay for many hours.. The only reason I don't stay is because when I do I feel unimportant, useless, and I get yelled at for being me.
Today all of my "friends" planned a surprise party during lunch for another girl I know... I was 1 of 2 people from my group that apparently weren't worth their time to tell that there was a surprise party. So me and that other person went looking for them and when we found them I was kind of pissed and they couldn't seem to understand why I would be pissed, so I left and none of them noticed at all....
Oh and I think they are hanging out tomorrow, but like always I'm apparently not invited.....

So, I once heard that the kind of friends you get after graduating will never be as good and as loyal as they are while your in school. I believe this will not be the case because you can't exactly get any lower then what my "friends" are to me....

The End

So I wrote this poem the other day when I was sad and bored.

Wishing,
a foot smashing the bug,
a bullet shooting the bird,
fire burning the tree,
water covering the land,
hunger starving the poor,
gas suffocating the people,
to just create an abyss.