Mustaches, I'm not attracted to men with mustaches.. but I noticed something today. I am more likely to trust a man who has a mustache then I am to trust anyone else. Why? Because my father has had a mustache as long as I can possibly remember. For those of you who don't know, my father divorced my mom when I was 9 and then moved to California when I was 11 or 12. I rarely ever see my father and we don't talk all that much. When I was younger and my mom told me my dad got divorced from her, I just shrugged. Even before they got divorced he wasn't around very much, I normally only saw him every other weekend... sometimes less... so him being gone "forever" wasn't really a huge deal to me. I did/do love my dad, but for some reason that had no effect on me at all as a little child, in fact, until very recently did it effect me at all. Which is why I find it weird that I trust mustache men so easily.
For some strange reason this year I've been missing my dad like crazy. I realize lots of my obsession with douche bag boys and thinking I deserve nothing and that nobody will ever love me is because I'm afraid to ever feel anything towards anyone, because I don't want them to leave and break my heart. I had apparently had repressed all feelings towards my dad and the situation for 11 or 12 years without even knowing it.
Until this year I never noticed I had abandonment issues or daddy issues. I thought all my anger was just cuz of my siblings (and yes part of it definitely was), but a part I hadn't realized was that I was suppressing other feelings like sadness and covering it with anger. Almost every time I've ever been angry, it was actually not anger that I was feeling it was sadness... but I thought it was better for me to get mad then to cry like a wussy.
Getting mad only gets you so far, plus you are more likely to lose friends and family and everyone you love that way, but if you're like me you haven't found a way to actually love anyone... because giving someone that kind of power over how you feel is scary. Being sad is a better way to deal with the horrible feelings of betrayal and horrible circumstances... I'm not saying you should wallow in self pity and cry all the time.. .I'm saying that crying is a part of the grieving process, because YES YOU ARE GRIEVING. Despite what you think, grieving doesn't have to be over just something big, it can be over small things like losing a friend or failing a test... So here's what you should be going through:
1. Denial and/or Isolation
2. Anger (it's better to not stay on this stage to long, it can make things worse)
3. Bargaining
4. Depression (don't stay to long on this one either)
5. Acceptance
You will hit all 5 stages at least once in this process (most likely), but if your like me you'll go through all of them multiple times in one day or over the week. It doesn't matter the order of 1-4 but as long as you can finally find acceptance, that's all that actually matters. Also, if you get stuck on an angry stage or depression for to long, seek help.. either from friends, family, youtube videos (they can help), help lines, anywhere you possibly can... You deserve to be happy and the only way you can do it is if you get rid of your negative feelings and finally realize your better then what's happening to you and move on, knowing that at some point it will have to get better... Just wait it out, just wait it out. Also if you ever need help, feel free to contact me. Send me a message or whatever, I'm hear to listen and I will try to help, because even though you're probably a stranger, I do love you. I want to help. I'm here for you if no one else is, I always will be. You matter, in my opinion more then I do. Lets do what it takes to make you as happy as I believe you deserve.
Thursday, January 31, 2013
EMBRACE YOUR WOMANHOOD!!!
Lately I've been wondering if I'm doing something wrong. It seems like everybody finds someone newer and better and then doesn't want to be friends anymore, and I'm wondering why. Am I really that horrible of a person that you feel the need to find someone better? I'm 100% honest, isn't that what people want? Trust without any doubt? I hate it when I ask someone if I look like crap and they say "no" but really they want to say "kinda." I want them to tell me so I can fix it, but apparently when they ask that question they don't want a real opinion, they just want one that will make them feel better. Would you really rather me tell you that you look amazing, then later realize you don't when a hot guy doesn't want to make-out with you? Or would you rather me tell you my real opinion and then try to help you look better so you can get the hot guy?
People just don't make sense. Also, apparently, guys don't want a girl with a personality or a body. They can a stick figure girl with nothing interesting about her. Every guy will claim that guys want a girl with a body, but the ones telling you that are never the ones that do... so if everyone is claiming other guys want bodied women... where are these other guys???? Or another pet peeve that male friends do is..
Me: "I look so ugly."
Male Friend (call him FM): "No you don't."
Me: "Guys don't like me cuz I"m ugly."
MF: "You're not ugly."
Me: "Then why don't you like me?"
FM: "Your not my type."
Me: "Yeah cuz I'm fat and ugly."
FM: "I'm just weird, I like stick skinny short girls."
Me: "So does every man..."
FM: "No I'm just weird."
Me: "You mean average?"
FM: "No, most guys aren't like me."
Me: "Then why can't I find a guy that likes me."
FM: "I don't know....."
Me: "Proof and point."
Guys stop telling normal girls that guys like girls with bodies and a personality... MEN may like that, but guys and boys do not. So women who have normal bodies, just wait til your older (23-30) and the real MEN come around, that's when the stick skinny women will be dead (anorexia) and MEN realize what is actually delicious. ;P
Also for those stick skinny women, why do you want to look like that? YOU look like a little BOY... why do you want to look like a boy? That doesn't make any sense. Girls are meant to have boobs and a butt, it's genetically programmed into our genes, stop being anorexic or working out to much so you will look more like a boy. EMBRACE YOUR WOMANHOOD.
People just don't make sense. Also, apparently, guys don't want a girl with a personality or a body. They can a stick figure girl with nothing interesting about her. Every guy will claim that guys want a girl with a body, but the ones telling you that are never the ones that do... so if everyone is claiming other guys want bodied women... where are these other guys???? Or another pet peeve that male friends do is..
Me: "I look so ugly."
Male Friend (call him FM): "No you don't."
Me: "Guys don't like me cuz I"m ugly."
MF: "You're not ugly."
Me: "Then why don't you like me?"
FM: "Your not my type."
Me: "Yeah cuz I'm fat and ugly."
FM: "I'm just weird, I like stick skinny short girls."
Me: "So does every man..."
FM: "No I'm just weird."
Me: "You mean average?"
FM: "No, most guys aren't like me."
Me: "Then why can't I find a guy that likes me."
FM: "I don't know....."
Me: "Proof and point."
Guys stop telling normal girls that guys like girls with bodies and a personality... MEN may like that, but guys and boys do not. So women who have normal bodies, just wait til your older (23-30) and the real MEN come around, that's when the stick skinny women will be dead (anorexia) and MEN realize what is actually delicious. ;P
Also for those stick skinny women, why do you want to look like that? YOU look like a little BOY... why do you want to look like a boy? That doesn't make any sense. Girls are meant to have boobs and a butt, it's genetically programmed into our genes, stop being anorexic or working out to much so you will look more like a boy. EMBRACE YOUR WOMANHOOD.
Monday, January 28, 2013
Douche Bag Couples
After watching Micheal and Jan's Dinner Party episode of The Office, I started to notice more when couples called each other "babe." Seems to me the only couples that refer to each other as "babe" are what I like to call "Douche Bag Couples." Let me expound upon this so you can figure out if you 2 are in a "DBC" or if your friends are.
1 or 2 of the people in the relationship are full of themselves, most likely the male. He's one of those guys that remind you of 13 year old boys with their "gangster" hats on backward, thinking that it's cool to shoot spitballs at random people in restaurants or that porn makes you a hot sexy man. He of course expects you to give him a blow job and swallow, if there is no swallowing you suddenly become ugly to him.
1 or 2 of the people in the relationship are addicted to sex and mistake the relationship for love instead of what it really is, lust. It's a common mistake for immature or not fully grown humans, which obviously to be in this relationship someone isn't.
1 or 2 of the people in the relationship is obsessed with sexy cars/motorcycles/trucks and would rather spend money on his car then anyone or anything else.
1 or 2 of the people in the relationship get overly possessive or controlling or has some serious jealousy issues. They'll normally get really bossy and expect you to stop hanging out with your friends because he or she "wants to be with you all the time", but really he or she doesn't want you to find someone better, because he or she knows you can.
Last 1 or 2 of the people in the relationship has or has had self-esteem issues. You can normally tell that they do or did because they over compensate or sluting around.
They are the most distinctive type of relationship to pick out and probably one of the worst to be in. If you see one of your friends in this relationship, confront them and lose your friendship or stay quiet until they either break up or get a divorce.
1 or 2 of the people in the relationship are full of themselves, most likely the male. He's one of those guys that remind you of 13 year old boys with their "gangster" hats on backward, thinking that it's cool to shoot spitballs at random people in restaurants or that porn makes you a hot sexy man. He of course expects you to give him a blow job and swallow, if there is no swallowing you suddenly become ugly to him.
1 or 2 of the people in the relationship are addicted to sex and mistake the relationship for love instead of what it really is, lust. It's a common mistake for immature or not fully grown humans, which obviously to be in this relationship someone isn't.
1 or 2 of the people in the relationship is obsessed with sexy cars/motorcycles/trucks and would rather spend money on his car then anyone or anything else.
1 or 2 of the people in the relationship get overly possessive or controlling or has some serious jealousy issues. They'll normally get really bossy and expect you to stop hanging out with your friends because he or she "wants to be with you all the time", but really he or she doesn't want you to find someone better, because he or she knows you can.
Last 1 or 2 of the people in the relationship has or has had self-esteem issues. You can normally tell that they do or did because they over compensate or sluting around.
They are the most distinctive type of relationship to pick out and probably one of the worst to be in. If you see one of your friends in this relationship, confront them and lose your friendship or stay quiet until they either break up or get a divorce.
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