Sunday, February 10, 2013

Maybe if I was different

Do you ever wish you could go back? Back to when times were simple. Times when people loved you and you loved them. Times when all you needed was imagination and the outdoors. Times when making friends was easy and you were suppose to be friends with everyone. When the only thing you worried about was the fact there wasn't ever enough time in the day to finish your game. When you weren't afraid to get in trouble for picking flowers at the neighbors house. When Climbing on houses and fences seemed normal and fun (well it still kind of is :P) Back when telling someone they were cute was easy because you felt invincible. What would you have done differently?
Let's start from the first thing I would change...
1. I would have never let my mom dress me for pictures
2. Kissed Mitchel Washburn not gone for Ty Sorensen
3. Dressed better
4. Stayed in touch with everyone who moved away.
5. Exercised more and took dance classes
6. Done better in the science fair
7. Made a better drama video
8. Told Brett how I felt in 7th-8th grade
9. Took dance
10. Never swear
11. Got better grades
12. Had more confidence
13. Made more dependable friends
14. Never steady dated
15. Took French
16. Been less crazy
17. Had less anger management issues.
18. Hung out with the neighbor boy less
19. Draw more
20. Took advantage of David hugging me
21. Spent less money on useless things
22. Not get in a car wreck
23. (this one is over time) make less babysitting mistakes, with nieces and neighbors.
24. Got a scholarship
25. Never been so annoyed by Tyler, Brett, and Andrew
26. Gone to college right outta high school
27. Dated Jonnie earlier
28. Looked prettier
etc.
There are so many things i wish I hadn't done, more then what I put on here, but I felt they were kind of inappropriate for this blog. >.> Anyways, just wondering what is your number one thing you would have changed? Mine is been more honest with myself and my feelings to others. I spent so many years holding in how I felt and repressing horrible things in my past. This later made me crazy angry and annoying and rude to everyone because I felt very alone and stressed. Maybe everything would be different now, if I had been different.... Maybe...

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