I realized today how much of a crappy friend I really am. I'm the worst. I just criticize you and criticize you 'til you can't take any more and decide to leave. It is possible that I just need to be taken off this planet, maybe I would be doing the world a favor if I did. Or maybe instead I can just disappear. Never to be seen or heard from again, then at least everyone can live a life where I didn't ruin it. I push everything to far. I have no boundaries. I need to get them, it's really affecting people around me. I predict that in a few short years my friends will leave me and forget that I ever existed or at least try to forget me, and I hope they all can.
If I had one wish right now it would be that everyone would forget I existed and they I could go live a life with no one in it. I don't want to hurt any more people. I don't want people to cry because of me. I don't want people to die because of me. Life would definitely be a better place if I wasn't in it at all. I have a quote that I wrote one day... "The world would be a better place if humans weren't in it." I believe now that it should be "The world would be a better place if I weren't in it." Maybe then everything would be all right. I know that I don't start world wars, and that I don't affect anything everyone else is doing. But if I hurt one more person I don't think I can take anything more, that means I would be affecting one persons life in a negative way and this world already being negative enough doesn't need me to help it. I think it's almost time for me to just Disappear.
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